yet again again again i always think ive been misread, misjudged, or misinterpreted. its simple. every single thing i do is in regard to keep someone/ anyone happy at heart. i never (yes NEVER is the word) INTENTIONALLY want to hurt anyone. i dont blurt out things, i dont hold grudges, all i do is say to myself repeatedly ITS ALL GONNA BE ALRITE.
when the road diverges to two, you take the beaten path, you take the path that you are familiar with. without hesistation, its human instinct to do so. i do that as well. i was afraid of unfamiliarities, i was afraid of taking chances, i was afraid of fucking up. that WAS me. i took the beaten path, known faces, friendly smiles, warm embraces, warm souls, that WAS and IS the path i chose. but what do i do when a new character jumps into my path and conveniently makes itself feel home? shall i be harsh and send it of the door ? when all that face wants is a chance to prove itself right ? (now the moral questions arise : do everyone deserve a chance? do anyone ever deserve forgiveness? do we have our rights ? ) ... so as complicated this THING is, familiar faces tend to unfamiliar, is it because my attention is driven away.. or am i simply being ignorant. neither! so, this is it.... i know.. my life is FUCKING SHORT..all i wanna do is make everyone happy. i know... im going to continue on this beaten track, there is not time for the road untaken! i want it to there. i want it to be real. i learnt my mistakes. i learnt that somethings should be said out aloud, somethings are to be kept within. being a student i am, we swore by confidentiality; who talks with you, will talk about you.
In a nutshell, ive learnt my mistake, how silly one can be to let it slip twice? as much as unconvincing i may sound.. totally satirical it all may seem to my eyes... im gonna remain in my place, with doors open, if you walk in ill receive you with my open arms. Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice shame on myself.
simple mistake, may be not, how do u deny yourself of love? how deny yourself of compassion? how do you deny yourself of affection ? are these deadly sins? doubt anyone can do that ...believe all these elements can soften a rock! little things in life that makes it all beautiful. and ive learn that life is short, why sit and whine about it while you can be other skipping through the parks; kicking off autumn leaves....
study study study!!!
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